I got exactly what I wanted, I got every last thing,
I got my emerald crown, I got my gilded wings.
As I danced at midnight, swaying like a birch tree,
The scars from my past became just memories.
Because I got what I wanted through blood, sweat and tears,
And many people smirked when I overcame my fears.
Still, I got the safety, and I got a stable home,
And in my animated mind I was never once alone.
I got my happy ending on my own silver screen,
But the final frames faded faster than the sheen.
While my champagne ran dry, I did not notice the shadows,
I did not see the evil men building me black gallows.
One day the life I knew shattered right before me,
It ripped like an old poster, broke like a cheap trophy.
Yes, I got exactly what I wanted, but it was not enough.
I smiled through my teeth, but the men called my bluff.
They stripped me of my jewels, they even took my pride.
When they were not looking, I hid away my mind.
I got all that I wanted, so they wanted some too,
And they took my golden eyes and died them deep blue.
The loss suffocated me like hot city air at night,
The disrespect cut my pale face with its knives.
I got the wings and the chalices but had no weapons.
They laughed at my words, they burned down my lessons
Until all that was left was just me and my thoughts
Swimming in my grey skull, twisting into knots.
I was ready to face the music then and there.
The evil men approached me, laughing at my fear.
As they lifted their blades in this falsified victory,
I cut my palms open on the broken chalices,
And I painted the streets red, I bled until they pleaded.
I lost all that I wanted, but got all I ever needed.
-Jackie