I execute these little plans in my head until I hear my skull bleeding,
Until a thick, red substance fills my ears and my nose,
Until I can only dream about seeing.
But I guess revenge needs me to buy out all the rows?
I fear that without these plots my life will lose all meaning.
I do not really want to break these rocks I throw –
Perhaps it is just a phase, just the process of healing.
Still, I tend to share more than I actually know,
And people see me as this ripe fruit that needs some peeling.
I fly through the sky, then eat dirt when I’m low.
I want to learn where I get all of these feelings.
My consciousness is pure, even whiter than snow
Despite the looming ghosts from my past cutting my helix.
One for the money, two for the show.
My anger never dies, it rises like a red phoenix.
So, I keep on scheming until I lose my pride and glow,
Until nobody even dares to ask why I’m bleeding.
Tomorrow is not promised, but it’s dripped in Bordeaux,
And I fear that without these plots mu life will lose meaning.
-Jackie