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No Truces

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It seemed like a hopeful story only as long as I loved you more than I despised you,

And you seemed like a brighter person when you listened,

But now greed and cruel intentions guide you.

Everyone you pull close keeps walking away, so you never give too much affection.

I wonder if you know that you starved me

Because you cannot even face your own reflection.

You have the time to spare for every stranger and you pretend to give true kindness

Just before you slap me with cold phrases,

Then demand I treat you like a royal highness.

I was sure your self-image was suffering greatly, but was it ever truly the case?

The control, the avoidance, the superiority…

Now I wonder about what it was that I tried to chase.

It seemed like a better movie back when I cared enough to suggest a few truces.

All you have left now is a great white silence

And a few dozen broken and bent excuses.

-Jackie

They Don’t Have That Power Anymore

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Step one:

Let them bruise your pride, let them bite your brittle skin

So that they think you will follow them straight into the fire.

Step two:

Get up graciously and let them know that you feel thankful

For teaching you the lesson of obedience for hire.

Step three:

Treat your red wounds until your rage runs your body

And turn into the person that they most admire.

Step four:

Let them think that they have you all tied up and loving.

Do not show them that the hand they’ve been dealt is dire.

Step five:

When they let their walls down, strike them in their chest.

Puncture their lungs like some old and useless tires.

Step six:

As they beg you not to leave, give them the last hope,

Then change your mind and tell them you’re finally tired.

Step seven:

Do not look at your phone, do not even touch it.

The apologies and curses might make you feel desired.

Step eight:

They will turn you into the villain of their path,

But these narratives are way too plain and retired.

Step nine:

Regain strength, they don’t have your power anymore.

They don’t get to be your truth and your only liar.

Step ten:

Greet your friends as they knock on your new door.

Let safe love warm you up like a calm bonfire.

-Jackie

One Two Three

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These stories about us keep popping up on my screens,

And I do not want to believe that they might be real.

Not again, not anymore.

Not me crying on the floor.

You could not find a way out, so you shot right through,

Leaving a wound in my head that is black and blue…

And for what?

Just to spite me?

Do not say that you cannot despise me.

When I was happy, you disguised me

Like being content is an indicator of some disease.

You made a pact with your mouth to never give me peace.

The most painful loves must come in threes

Because I do not want to hear from you,

Do not want to reinvent myself anew.

These stories about us keep popping up on my screens,

And I know I will make it out as long as I scream.

-Jackie

Revenge Fantasies

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I execute these little plans in my head until I hear my skull bleeding,

Until a thick, red substance fills my ears and my nose,

Until I can only dream about seeing.

But I guess revenge needs me to buy out all the rows?

I fear that without these plots my life will lose all meaning.

I do not really want to break these rocks I throw –

Perhaps it is just a phase, just the process of healing.

Still, I tend to share more than I actually know,

And people see me as this ripe fruit that needs some peeling.

I fly through the sky, then eat dirt when I’m low.

I want to learn where I get all of these feelings.

My consciousness is pure, even whiter than snow

Despite the looming ghosts from my past cutting my helix.

One for the money, two for the show.

My anger never dies, it rises like a red phoenix.

So, I keep on scheming until I lose my pride and glow,

Until nobody even dares to ask why I’m bleeding.

Tomorrow is not promised, but it’s dripped in Bordeaux,

And I fear that without these plots mu life will lose meaning.

-Jackie

Elated

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I try to collect the storylines that I lost,

But my path to joy was rocky and deflated.

No matter the sadness, no matter the cost,

All I wanted was to finally see you elated.

You punished me with roaring silent treatment

As my tears turned into glimmering razors.

I wasn’t a saint, but I wasn’t the demon.

You didn’t have to efface me with an eraser.

-Jackie

The Maze

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The bathroom mirror bends my waist in half

And it’s the only friend I’ve got when I’m wasted.

I starved myself of joy for reckless beings.

Now I’m a wreck too, and I hate it.

Yes, I hate it.

People accuse me of cruel phrases,

Saying hurt is just a phase I will sweat out.

But being unlovable is like a maze –

The deeper you go, the more you change route.

You cannot get out.

-Jackie

Too Kind

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Are people just open wounds waiting to ooze?

Are we dying to infect whoever comes too close?

You joked about becoming my full-time muse,

Now you can’t take my words,

My smiles and my clothes.

You suffocate me, I am drowning in liquid.

My lungs are filling up with congealed blood.

Am I nothing more than one of your victims?

You let me bloom like fire,

Then cut off the rosebud.

You spread like a disease through my mind

And left me outside to heal on my own.

But you were wrong in thinking I am too kind

To slash you in half

And take back the throne.

-Jackie

As Sure As The Tides Will Fall And Rise

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We are stuck between live and let die.

I let you cut off my limbs one by one

Until I need you to survive,

Need you to hold my golden gun.

My lungs crave the air you breathe,

But you are not giving it away.

I wish I still had the strength to leave.

I wish I wanted to stay.

The trains will crash at midnight

As you hold me in your arms.

The sound will kill our porch light,

But the fire will do no harm.

The morning after I will arise

To my pale limbs all greeting me.

As sure as the tides will fall and rise,

I will reclaim my dignity.

-Jackie

Eclipse

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These long eclipse hours I waste daydreaming about what could have been,

They weigh heavily on what is left of my heart,

Then erase my good deeds to replace them with sins.

I long for a place under this pitch-black sky but all I see are scarlet warnings.

Loose memories float right in front of my face,

And I can only hope I get to see the next morning.

No, it was not always like this – I still remember how I used to greet the sun.

Every puzzle piece of my virtues broke into shards,

So, I told my loved ones to run.

Now I keep getting stuck in this endless feedback loop of spiraling emotions,

And nobody dares to call my name out loud

Because I turn sympathy into solid devotion.

Some nights I even enjoy watching the fear fill their eyes like maroon smoke.

I hate who I have become more than anything,

But I fantasize about choking out these old jokes.

These long eclipse hours I spend considering how I let myself bleed red,

They drag me by my ankles like balloons,

Then replace my gleeful smiles with torment and dread.

-Jackie

Terrible People

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We laugh in a cozy bar without a single soul around us.

Just for a moment I enjoy the silence in my head.

I get high on conversations about terrible people,

And your patience for your boss is hanging by a thread.

Someone drops their cold beer and breaks the glass,

But we barely notice as the sparkling time flies by.

I do not remember what I cried about last night,

And I am sure that you have the strongest alibi.

The streetlights do not make any sense in the rain

As we jump over puddles giggling like some kids.

A few months ago, I walked until I got soaking wet,

And I thought that love should feel like needles and pins.

But I am not that bright-eyed girl who they once knew.

Irises replaced the sour feelings that grew rotten.

I know he is out there talking about terrible people,

And as long as you are here, it is all long forgotten.

-Jackie