Winds

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My neck bends to your winds and spells out every sentence you mutter.

I am enchanted by your hexes as my spite slides down into the gutter.

Not that long ago I volunteered to be one of your muses,

But you rearranged my words like a puzzle, and I politely refused the music.

My arms swing into your winds and cry for your love in the darkest hour.

I am stuck between your teeth with the rest of my world that you devoured.

No, I did not ask you for much, but you were still unconvinced.

Now white walls talk to you in dozens of voices

And I am gone with the winds.

-JW

The Provoked And Resentful

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The rusty iron rods feel like feathers on my chest.

Don’t worry, don’t you decompress,

Just try to do your best

As you’re dealing with your own god complex.

The acid is dripping down my sides in harmony.

It’s not about what you thought of me,

It’s about how you reigned judgement of those who were free

Because you live in fallacies.

I am not your queen, I am not a lady.

Burn the lines if they seem too hazy.

You’re afraid because you just cannot make me into a mirage

With a weak voice and hands that are shaky.

All you want is pedal to the metal.

You’ve only been someone’s first choice when they settled.

I get it, love, it must hurt to fall off the saddle,

So you channel your resentment into the corporate ladder.

And the knives feel gracious on my tongue.

Go and teach a lesson to the young,

Set an example on how to drown a voice yet unsung

As you’re desperately removing my gurgling lungs.

-JW

Every Villain Needs An Origin Story

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You acted like it was difficult to dig a hole in my spine.

You pretended for decades that all the things I have gathered were not really mine.

But I forgave because I always push through the pain.

There are no shortcuts or leeway for those who do not learn the rules of the game.

Guilt knows how to crawl on your shoulders without a sound.

I was running, bruising my own knees just to realize that I was the feared hound.

And you convinced me that letting go is oh, so easy, baby,

But I am on a guilt trip, lost and alone in the desert, with no one left to save me.

The anger inside tears apart all that is tranquil and scenic.

My teeth are sharp, every creature steps back when I smile wide, like I mean it.

You act cool, you keep your distance, you just observe

As they come up with theories about my origin story that are nothing but absurd.

I forgave you then, and like clockwork I forgive you now.

You know they will never believe me, a beast this violently off-putting and loud.

Humiliation is a strong leash; it chokes you without a sound.

I keep running, bruising my own knees, knowing too well I am forever bound.

-JW

Moments Of Destruction

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Isn’t it scary – collecting wild roses,

Knowing you won’t be able to take them with you

Once the final gate closes?

You always called me cynical.

I used to throw my palms in harm’s way for you,

Thinking it was my pinnacle.

Now you’re getting ripped apart by the thorns.

Everyone warned you, but still –

You burned alive every single thing you adored.

I will take my rose with me,

Enjoying each moment of the destruction,

Forgetting you were once my legacy.

A piece of me will ache all the same.

And I should be happier than last year, but still –

It’s never easy to drown the shame,

So I scream at the rain from my window sill.

-JW

Perfectly Silent

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They kneel before me as I enter the city.

No knives, no boots,

Just some hope behind layers of pity.

I will never surrender, I will never cave.

This is my home,

No need for me to play this brave.

My dark thoughts work better alone.

The misery never leaves,

It whispers, curses and moans.

But I dream about my city when I sleep.

This is my haven,

This is the heart I wear on my sleeve.

And they kneel as I am ready to dive in.

No fear, no dreams.

Just some salvation, perfectly silent.

-JW

Unsafe

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I fear stillness and putting down roots.

Home is needless

If you only think after you shoot.

When you live on pins and needles,

Nothing is safe.

Be it graveyards or grand cathedrals,

Be it deep sea caves.

-JW

The Gilded Cage

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My skull is a long-lost ship adrift in its own boiling darkness.

It smears my thoughts with soot, hiding blades in deep waters.

The daggers only leave scarlet scars if I pull them out weeping.

Searing misdeeds call for my neck whenever I try sleeping.

It has been months since I have seen shore or even a beacon.

The hope overflows each morning, but every night I get weaker.

My anthracite tears drip slow like honey, they burn with rage.

My head is a snarling beast, captured and locked in a gilded cage.

-JW

Wasted Away

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The feathers fall on weathered tombstones.

All the candles are dripping bright orange wax,

And the lights are calling me home.

Shapeless branches cover me like a blanket.

I hide from the moonlight yet another night,

Seeking out shadow to thank it.

Leaves get tangled in my hair with spiderwebs.

There is not a single soul around in these trees.

I give up my common sense.

Tranquil whispers shuffle in the distance

As I waste myself away hour after long hour,

Searching for a sinless existence.

-JW

Crushed

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You pick and choose the colors you assign to my halo

While my ribs are bursting open like volcanoes.

My worth is always equal to how much I lie for you,

After all that I did you still try to hide my truth.

I paint myself in gold, but you erase all my glory.

The more I obey, the more you twist my stories.

There is nowhere to escape, only pressure on my chest.

My lips are painted grey as you tell me to rest.

You crush my lungs between the tips of your fingers.

The sound cracks in half and the violence lingers.

You pick and choose the spots where you cut me open.

As I bleed out dry, they still look for a motive.

-JW

The Downward Slope

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I reflected at the still lakes,

I searched through hundreds of wells.

They say I am missing my heart.

Well, I do not know where it fell.

The mirror image says nothing.

I am out of pity and patience.

The deep waters still scare me,

Even if they are an imitation.

My thoughts joke crudely,

Taking away the humanity I saved.

The left leg punches thin air,

The right one breaks, trying to be brave.

And I am stuck at the beginning,

Always tied to one more hope.

The end is reaching out its sharp claws.

I am headed for the downward slope.

-JW