Tag: Jackie’s diaries

I watch you slipping up in lies, forgetting your lines.

It is a compromise –

I over-apologize whenever I break yet another disguise.

You cross out my name, then drown it in blame.

A game is a game, honey,

And once you lose, we cannot be the same.

But I still pay my dues, I pay your rent in blues.

There is just one you.

I wish your fuse did not fit me like a shoe.

You put your pain on me, call your misfortunes my destiny.

I guess the gods are really testing me,

Pumping you full of glee and fallacies.

-JW

The trees are going to fall like they have been cut with a knife,

And the bodies hanging onto their roots will come back to life.

The moon will bear its children on the top of the steepest hill,

And the sceptics will watch in awe, standing on windowsills.

The highest tower is going to collapse like a house of cards,

And nobody will be exempt from taking a shard to the heart.

The rivers will run evergreen with poison ivy and pesticides,

And non-believers will call the casualties assisted suicides.

The meadows are going to run with red streams of carnation,

And all the misguided ghosts will escape their eternal damnation.

The deep seas will rise higher than my ever-boiling wrath,

And the critics will drown face-first in the brewing bloodbath.

-JW

And maybe this will not pass,

And maybe we must make our peace with that.

If the darkness carries us down the stream,

Let it,

Let it all be.

Just know that maybe it will not pass,

And they will say “sorry” and other words that do not last.

We are meant to be bruised,

Miss the things that we lose,

Walking down empty avenues.

And maybe this will never pass,

Maybe the present is glued to the past.

I count down the days,

Wishing this is not my last,

Hoping I can find the way,

But the time –

It is slipping through my fingers a little too fast.

-JW

Her locks held sweet cherry scent,

And I held her like a breath.

Those moments were heaven-sent,

But I wreaked the clouds,

I failed her tests,

Still hoping she would be proud.

It was not the same, it never is.

Her screams and my shouts,

From lovers to enemies.

The watchers gathered in crowds

As I returned her jewelry,

Then took up a new route,

Knowing I am killing my destiny.

-JW

My time froze around you, blessing your mind to stay forever young,

It encapsulated every second your name got caught up in my lungs.

I still look back with the hopefulness I had the day we first met,

Before the words rolling off your tongue sounded like cruel threats.

The tears I spilled fell on the ground and fell apart like dominoes,

A chain reaction caused by your heavy guilt growing comatose.

But I keep your icy gaze in a wooden frame by my kitchen door,

I think about all the roads I did not take because I had you to adore.

My time froze around you, killing everything that once kept me warm.

No matter how hard I tried to build a fire, I did not brave the storm.

I am still hopeful, I know one day the sun will smile upon my tears,

But for now, they form icicles so smooth they reflect all my greatest fears.

-JW