My Wake, circa October 2024

Photo of a foggy forest
Photo by Anton Atanasov

Remain quiet behind the old graveyard gate.
The handles and locks make you think that you’re late,
Yet you’re just in time for the freshest slate—
Resurrection of a girl in the gilded crate.

Approach with caution, beware the emerald flame.
Don’t stare at the cryptids, the beast, the dame.
When the clock strikes midnight, shout out your name.
Watch the shallow grave shake from ancestral shame.

Watch it deepen and widen in quiet rage.
The priests will get butchered with a single page,
But don’t you run—wait for the gilded cage.
Observe her blood-red hair, observe that stunning mage.

A man will ask who put her to early death.
She’ll raise a single brow like it’s a cunning threat,
Then say, “Every captain I’ve ever met,”
Leaving you high and dry, stealing your mind and breath.

The mage will stand up only to fall on her knees.
Never trust your instinct to help the weak.
She’s a traitor tailored for devils and greed.
Someone who knew her said she was the Queen of Peace,

But rising tides filled her lungs with salt water,
Drowned her homes and hopes along with her own father.
As you watch her limbs stiffen up, growing harder,
You’ll question whether she’s a lion or a martyr.

The candles spin in thin air as chants come to be hectic.
Were her eyes made by gods to birth heretics?
Her frame levitates, killing your inner skeptic,
And curses bleach your soul like an antiseptic.

The first rays of sun peek through sacred trees.
Wet ground starts swallowing her bones and dreams,
Until her skin turns to dust, until the fingers freeze.
Some spit on her grave, some tremble like leaves.

The crowds disappear until only two souls remain—
A woman in green, a creature with your own name.
The lines on her face are carved from sheer pain.
Your eyes meet, and her voice spills out like champagne:

“She was forged from stone, rubies, silver, and heat.
Resurrections only haunt those who refuse to leave.
I’m yet to learn that lesson—should’ve let her become me,
Should’ve let her slash throats that claimed to be holy.

I tortured her to entertain the cruel and divine,
Until her name became the butt of a victor’s rhyme.
Here she lies, drowned in words that were never mine.
Here she dies, knowing she was buried alive.”

-Jackie

Paradox

To all the friends we lose while navigating our own journey.

Twice a month, I dream of you walking these streets,

Calling me mad and calling out my undying greed.

Strangely, that still fills me with hopeless joy

Because you turned our friendship into this cheap decoy.

We fell apart when I turned to better choices,

Pointing out your mistakes, your antithetical voices.

I wasn’t nice or fair, I admit it now, honey,

But neither were you, begging for favors and money.

My paragraphs were petty, and your love was cheap.

I hate growing up; some nights I can’t even sleep.

These paradoxes pile up on my doorstep like mail.

You’ll judge me harshly when I finally fail.

These words mean nothing in the grand scheme of things.

They might reach you, and they might really sting.

I hope you’ve moved on, I hope you remember.

I was never kind enough to let you be tender.

-Jackie

Your Apartment

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Bright orange sun’s setting over your empty building,

The windows carry your refection, pale yet gilded.

The apartment’s wrapped in your evaporating scent.

It’s fading into nothingness, stealing away the rent.

You’re gone but the misery is running on empty.

I’m just wishing someone would volunteer to help me

And bring back what’s left of you in this wasteland –

But tragedy only kills those who face it first-hand.

I miss you while the sun plays with your coffee cups.

Your neighbors don’t know, I hear their laughter erupt.

From your living room window I see the place we met,

Now it feels like a long-abandoned movie set.

I get on my knees and let the light burn me dry,

Praying to anyone who would listen for one last high.

Yet, the radio silence is unforgiving, as always,

And I know I’ll move on from these never-ending dog days.

Still, the orange sun haunts me through lonely evenings,

It fades your reflection and calls it grieving.

Looks are deceiving.

I need you to stay just to keep breathing.

-JW

Cheap Misanthropies

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It’s OK, break the last hope in me and don’t hesitate.

Don’t you feel sorry for trying so hard to emulate?

It won’t be simple to live with this heart and this desire

But for five years in a row you have asked for it,

You’re the one to aspire.

It’s alright, take my friends and borrow my trophies.

Turn my beliefs into blow or cheap misanthropies.

If you ask one day – why does life hurt all of a sudden?

Don’t be afraid, put my body in dirt, sink it in a puddle.

It won’t help your struggle

But…

It’s fine, peel my skin off and read my diaries through.

My unexpected exit isn’t the reason I’m feeling so blue.

The crowds are wearing my liveliness over their shoulders,

Expecting to gain the power of a hundred soulful soldiers.

That’s what’s shaking my coffin, making me older

But what’s living without a little after-life odor?

One day we’ll mold the ones that were always the scolders.

-JW