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Not In The Cards

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The oblivion in the corner of my brain seems to grow.

It nags my senses, threatening a row,

Calling my peace a riot –

Despite my soul staying deadly quiet.

So why is it growing, who’s feeding its rhetoric?

These thoughts are so vehement,

They launch at me with grave disgust,

Dusting off all the pain I’ve never discussed.

In the centre of it – there’s you,

Replaced with coordinates and clues.

And I know I must resist this,

Your words are too malicious.

But the oblivion surrounds us

With discomfort and chaos

Until the terror grows larger than we could ever dream.

It shoots back at the universe, beam after beam,

And we’re frozen,

Almost like we’re chosen…

I let the chips fall where they may.

There’s comfort in masterless fate.

I pick up the shards,

I cut you out, pretending it isn’t hard

To admit that we were never in the cards

As my soul watches like a prison guard.

But the oblivion in the corner of my brain seems to go.

It takes your face and all the pain I’ve ever known.

Not for long, no,

I’ll see you next weekend to repeat this show.

-JW

Bankrupt

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You arrived like a storm and left with the first Foehns,

Blonde hair and bruised collarbones,

Green dripping down your unreachable phone.

The dial tone says it all,

She’ll never come home.

Sweating champagne, grasping at cigarette smoke.

You swore there’s no difference between broken and broke

While sipping Coke until the city air choked

As you danced alone

To Killing Joke.

And they loved you while I swallowed the tears.

No one worries because no one hears –

But your lips shoot to kill once the midnight nears.

Yet – all they see is your costume

With its bunny ears.

You’re always running your tongue, it’s a wicked race.

Survival of those without shame and grace.

You thought your stature put me in my place.

But you’re heavy like a statue,

You can’t keep up the pace.

And I might’ve escaped but I’m still calling.

You never pick up but each day it’s less appalling.

So tonight I’m withdrawing,

Falling behind,

Letting you to go all in

And live on nothing but your bankrupt mind.

-JW

The Well

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There’s this unspoken fear in the obvious

That’s devotedly snaking around the both of us.

Our wrists are leaking poison into the well

But I won’t say it if you won’t tell.

They’re drinking it up, they’re cheering out loud.

The biggest liar is the face of a crowd.

Our lids are dripping neon into the well

But I won’t say it if you won’t tell.

We’re drifting apart, firing bullets with our tongues,

Wounded to death but the night is still young.

Our heads are spilling gasoline into the well,

But I won’t explode if you won’t yell.

-JW

Wait Up

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The mask is slipping,

Ripping my veil open at the stitches.

But my temper switches

Between keeping the riches and keeping my pride.

“Such a waste of a beautiful bride.”

My spite boils like the desert sun.

I hold the gun close to my right

With no one in sight except heroes and foes.

I’ve been travelling through lows.

And maybe it’s your time to start unravelling…

The mask if halfway off.

Enough.

Leave the cuffs, let the covered half pay what’s due.

It takes two to turn my guts true –

So wait up,

I’m coming with you.

-JW

Rinse And Repeat

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I am sinking bad omens in the hungry autumn waves.

They whirl around, they hide nervously in dim sea caves

But I am eager to catch every last one and kill it,

Put the bones on an open flame, cook them in a skillet.

I count them on my fingers until my knuckles bleed.

There is always another one – or so says my greed.

And I will not let a new curse ring my doorbell,

No matter the fantasy, no matter their hard sell.

I spend days looking for a new poison to purchase.

The best is still sold in medieval churches,

Wrapped in false beliefs but I do not mind it –

They contain poison too if you know where to find it.

Each evening I walk the pier with an omen, I drown another.

“This one will save me from myself and my brothers.”

Whenever I think there is no one left to vanish,

My ego visits me, deeply ashamed and way too famished,

And begs of me to go on the hunt just one last time…

I hear some whisper that I am creating this loop

But I will never admit such a crime.

-JW

My Latest Test

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I give you the nights.

I gift you all the moments when I feel clarity in my sight.

And I hope they serve as a word of warning –

About those who deem harming the ones you create

As the highest form of art.

But you were never an artist at heart,

You just trapped my stamina,

Raised it like a wild animal.

But I never complained, not once,

And now we both live under two different suns.

So I give you my nights,

The only time I’m safe from the limelight.

Be wary of the power of this gift, dear,

Hold back all the childish fear.

The pitch black mist consumes those

Who accept stolen goods from their foes.

But my pride was never stolen, was it?

Go ahead, accept my nights as the deposit

And hope you’re not the next

Failing my latest test.

-JW

Scarlet Rhymes

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Your brain, it dictates you dark poetry.

Come and carve an artwork out of me.

I bleed black when you cut me open.

Baby, I’ve long been broken

Far beyond repair –

So don’t try to fixate on the just or the fair.

Cut away until there’s only an inky void left.

“Robbing me of breath is not a theft.”

Do your worst,

I’m neither your last nor your first.

Clean your knives without any guilt,

Don’t mind the guts that I’ve willingly spilled.

Trap my essence in a whiskey bottle,

Hide the mottle.

You need not worry when you fall asleep.

It wasn’t a creak,

It was only the wind in the attic.

Go ahead, close your eyes to the sound of static.

You didn’t hear the bottle break,

These days nightmares feel far from fake.

And the sound of blades getting sharpened

Shouldn’t make you this disheartened.

So don’t turn your head left.

“Robbing me of breath is not a theft.”

It is, however, a neon red perfidy

And, my dear, respectably and cursedly

You’ll bleed blue in your gilded sheets

Until your tongue is out of cheats.

My brain will dictate me scarlet rhymes

As it carves sense out of your senseless crimes.

-JW

Counting Down

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Once the droplets settle on the glass we both know it’s over,

But we still count down the minutes in case this’ll pass

As we grow older.

I draw circles in the humid air, slowly and somewhat patiently.

The leaves keep getting stuck in my frizzy weekend hair,

And then you say to me:

“Maybe something somewhere is better than this crushing feeling.

We’re both so young, yet looking the worse for wear,

We’re wilfully bleeding.”

But I take your words with a grain of salt and an ounce of solace.

It’s difficult to leave when parting ways is no one’s fault –

Yet, this love is lawless.

Once the droplets settle on the grass we both know it’s time,

But we still count down the seconds in case it’ll pass

With the freezing clime.

-JW

Bleach

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I hold onto the cold banister

As they beg you:

“Please banish her.”

But you aren’t my punisher

So stand down.

Stay behind the barrier.

I know how to self-sabotage,

Say words like:

“We are meant to last.”

Then cut open the mirage,

Detach the wings

From the fuselage.

I contemplate my realities

As you wait it out

While the crowd isn’t pleased.

Fight again or appease?

The latter option

Feels like a sweet release

So I let go of what is out of reach.

Release the banister,

Let you win the siege.

Never trust those who preach

That life’s better

When soaked in bleach.

-JW

Don’t Take Me With You

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You swore to gods that your patience for me was long gone

When you cut me off like a deceitful con.

Even though you barely kept your head above the water

You never tried becoming a better father.

You stole time and trust from anyone who mattered

But my alliances were never scattered.

The night we last met your intentions were see-through.

I prayed – please don’t take me with you.

You never drove off that bridge in your selfish sadness.

Yet, you showed me the purest form of madness.

It’s been 6 years since I last heard your excuses,

But the pain you brought still feeds my muses.

And maybe, just maybe, you took me with you after all?

Because the rage I breathe feels like an endless fall.

-JW