The voices at the back of my mind hum familiar phrases.
They tell me secrets, they sing quiet curses and praises.
I wish no one notices the holes in my most hidden mazes,
And I wonder if I can disappear without leaving a trace.
-Jackie
Phrases
Tag: fiction
Living In The Past
I like you better when I watch you grow smaller in the rearview mirror.
I love you right when I see you running after a cab that I never took.
The things I enjoy in a moment tend to turn into scary enemy figures.
These memories I carry with me tend to turn into worst-selling books.
-Jackie
Anxious
I feel trapped under every word these selfish lips mutter,
And I know that one rainy day they will choke me out.
Paragraphs build on my chest until breath doesn’t even matter.
I wish I could lose this murmuring brain in a roaring crowd.
-Jackie
Time Heals All
Time heals all except for fury.
One should let that feeling sizzle.
Disappointment found an exit,
But the rage, it did not fizzle.
Time heals all except for anger.
One should let that flame burn out.
Petty heartache has an end,
But rage will never know a drought.
-Jackie
Circumstantial
Our friendship slipped through our shaky fingers,
And we did not even try to chase it down.
I wish I could name the people I miss,
But I know that I cannot fix your frown.
Our deepest bonds became circumstantial,
Your lips told me that I had lost the fight.
I wish I could throw in just one more sentence,
I wish I could tell you that you were right.
-Jackie
Taker
If I tell one more story in these lines,
If I give you another paragraph of tears,
Will you stop the rising tide?
Will you watch as I choke, then disappear?
I give away details like cheap candy
Just to end up with the short end of the stick.
You strip away my kindness when it is handy,
Then leave me shivering and sick.
If I answer one more overpriced question,
If I gift you the last pieces of my soul,
Will you compare me to pure perfection?
Or will you promise that a man can make me whole?
I have nothing but sheer numbness left.
I bet a better stranger will heal your bruises.
Go seek your vengeance or some real depth,
Turn my stories into twisted muses.
-Jackie
Remorse
I don’t quite believe that remorse exists,
At least not like the greatest poets describe it.
I did what I had to and survived this mess,
No need to iron it out or somehow hide it.
The pain to come will be just a reminder,
The months that pass will form a faint scar.
I collect the sharp words in a thick binder.
I hope you forget me, then I wish on a star.
-Jackie
Shields
Your dishonesty shields you from my forgiveness,
But I still hope I can slash you with this blade.
The body went limp after a few thousand cuts,
And even our roses had to die in the shade.
Why did we put stiches on rotting corpses?
Why did we lose courage in the haziest nights?
You said that your armor was not a danger,
Yet you quickly grew into a ruthless knight.
-Jackie
Truth Serum
Maybe I’m meant to love people from a far,
Keep my gurgling love at a safe distance.
These childproof locks that I put on my heart,
They break like sticks when I feel resistance.
I could have held you but it was not enough,
I could have lied but the serum ruined me.
Now I hate you for blowing up all my bluff
And you think I adore my own cruelty.
-Jackie
Sweet Tooth
I give into my sweet tooth,
Give into my desires.
Trees are burning from the root,
But I fan the fire.
I crave sugar on my lips,
Sour tears in my eyes.
Use sins to pay the tips,
Smoke my lows to get high.
-Jackie
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