Being at ease is not easy when the mind is buzzing louder than the latest news.
It’s like living with a python, fearing constriction, then you find a bite and a bruise.
Has it been venomous all along? Was I running the wrong way for years?
Should I just feed it with the last of my pride and some one night volunteers?
No matter how much I nourish the beast, it comes back hungrier; I get paranoid.
Why is it making me go bankrupt, does it not know – nothing will fill the void?
Truth be told – nothing fills me up either so maybe she’s a worthy enemy after all?
God was reciting Corinthians but I was fortunate enough to miss that disrupted call.
Yes, you could say I’m lacking faith, playing with fiery positions keeps me at bay –
But don’t you be offended, at the end of the day I order this chaos and I pay.
And please avoid being gracious about my struggles to pay a rent for this brain…
With the corner of my eye I see shop windows reflecting the shadows of Cain.
-JW
The Daily Writing of Jackie Wright 