Month: Sep 2020

Whenever a man tries to move forward from all the things that he’s done,

Whenever another second-hand lover touches his chest like I used to do

When we were having our fun…

Do you think of me or do you still see the rising tide as the human nature

Because I drank all your whiskey and your mother never hesitated

To call you a failure.

I get the picture and I understand the motive a bit too well for my taste

But a man has to answer for his actions once he loses the count over

The hells he raised.

Can you look at my bones and promise – I am the first you’ve lost

To the burning jealousy in your veins that doesn’t let go until all the lines

Are inevitably crossed?

Do you ever see my face while driving down that pier we loved the most?

And do you hold her hand like you did mine – until my throat got in the way

So I paid the cost?

But you won’t be able to make amends in post.

No excuses, no mercy,

Just mind covered in ghouls and ghosts.

My guilt’s not proven, please don’t call me a sinner.

I was holding her hair while the lights grew dimmer.

It was unexpected and out of the blue but she asked

Whether I would like to make her heart run fast.

This is not a confession, you won’t understand

How it felt different when we lied by the sand.

Her fingers were shaky, her thoughts were so far –

You won’t get it… But I knew she’s found another, a new start.

Please stop yelling, you can’t interrogate me without proof!

Once again – when I saw her that day, I was aloof,

Mild-mannered, not furious at all, I let her slide

Deep into the lips of another lover

She couldn’t hide.

I’ve got to go, there’s no point if this is a frame-up.

Jealousy’s stupid, not at all what I’m made of!

Her shirt smelled like sandalwood that day, no surprises,

You can’t escape hot water you boil yourself in

And then cry when it rises.

Don’t worry, I’ll show myself out of this place.

Most murders like this never bring forward a case.

Yes, I’ll be awaiting a call from you but take precautions –

My baby lost her breath but I’m the one left dealing

With phantoms and lawyers.

Be cautious, Sir, be cautious.