The Secrets Of Mahogany Street

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All the leaves are soaked in the ruby evening sun

Setting over the heads of city’s sin-eating scum,

But they do not notice, no, with their horse blinders,

With their grubby Bibles, one cent for seven binders.

The dusk flourishes in all its glory, it nourishes me.

The smooth silk of the night covers us in polishes and glee,

And we’ve been starving for a silent moment like this,

Trembling as the mahogany monsters tie up our wrists.

The buildings surrounding us stare too stoically –

Scarlet lights make this scene taste of crude loyalty.

We’re taken down the street, blinded and submissive.

Not a sound in the salty air, it’s not the noise we’re missing.

The wicked walk comes to a full stop, the wires loosen,

We see the city glisten miles away, we listen to the music.

Perfect circles forming around the maroon shine of the fires.

I’m ready to revolve around the flame, my heart’s a liar.

As the bodies grow warmer, the monsters grow greedier,

The creatures sneaking closer to our necks seem seedier.

But if we just keep up with the song, we might be alright –

“These dark rituals can only be carried out during the night.”

Not all persevere, I see some faint, I watch them stumble.

Just before they’re never seen again their minds crumble,

They collapse inwards as another bulb in the city goes out.

My feet rest on the hot coals, heat fills my veins like grout.

And all the leaves get soaked in the ruby morning sun

Setting on fire the heads of our city’s sin-eating scum,

But they do not notice, no, with their horse blinders,

With their grubby paws they point and shriek:

“You know where to find us.”

-JW

Painting Lessons

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You can’t just paint my elbows blue whenever you want to.

Don’t dip them in watercolours and glue

Unannounced, impromptu.

I can’t smear all my blouses with paint that looks like bruises,

Can’t simulate the symptoms for you

Or your deceased muses.

All my summer dresses haven’t been ironed or washed out of fear

That you will grow jealous for me trying

More than once a year.

My jeans still hold juniper green stains from the day we met.

You still make my hair stand on end

With a single stroke and a threat.

-JW

The Green Period

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The echoes answered me over the emerald rooftops,

They palpitated through the evergreen hops

As I ran towards the rumbling mountains without a worry –

Some asked whether this was the Promised Land

But they knew this is a godless territory.

The voices chanted ageless rhymes I couldn’t translate.

I’m such a product of my times, all my morals are a bate,

Yet I came tête-à-tête with more olive branches with each step.

Most couldn’t believe their eyes, they stole glimpses

But always ended up holding a bayonet.

The whispers swirled gentler than the falling snow,

They landed in my hair, they muttered, “Darling, no.”

My body stood still, thoughts unruffled and lips serene.

Not a single soul dared to ask as they noticed my irises,

They were blooming sage green.

-JW

The Luxury Tiling

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They said if I worked harder, I would chase down the dream,

So I overthrew my best intentions, cut out my own spleen.

Now the man I love only tolerates me for the bright sheen.

The splinters in my cheeks are a part of some grand scheme.

No place for love at this side of the Coney Island type of paradise.

I suck it up, it can all be taken away with one roll of the dice.

Too bad – it is not me holding the winning cards or the casino keys,

And I want a seat in heaven but my place is on my knees.

They said if I ran faster, I would catch up with the rest –

So I braved the mud, rolled over on my back to be the best.

The one I love ignores how everyone calls him “The Blessed”.

He never learned the rules of conduct when it came to playing chess.

No space for errors at this crude side of the town, keep on smiling.

I hold it in until I am home, there I destroy all the luxury tiling.

Too bad, it is not me holding the credit card or the upside down frown,

And I want a seat in heaven but first I must get out of this town.

-JW

The Spin

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The sentences you murmur get entangled with mine, it’s funny,

Almost a coincidence, almost like you’re into this for the new money.

You feel intuitive, just like the paintbrushes between my fingers.

The word on the street is you can’t manage your anger, it lingers.

You grip the wheel until your knuckles turn white when I tease you.

You’re not into people, you’re only into things that please you.

Why am I watching your brain fall apart, why am I even here?

No willingness to fix the issues. No pretend, no love and no care.

But somehow your hold around the folds of my brain is stronger,

It’s puncturing my fragile strings, it’s making the dawns longer.

When the evening rushes towards me, all the notions dissolve.

I let your words speak for themselves

And they never evolve.

-JW

All The Dead Muses

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Paint dripping into the grass, paint dripping down the walls.

It’s a scene, it’s a vice you can’t buy in the mall.

The room was all white and we turned it vivid blue –

It’s a parody of the invasion of Normandy, it’s our Waterloo.

The charcoal in my palm tastes sullied and bitter,

Feels as if the story of me was never written.

Colours poured down my spine, colours all over the stage.

With each brush I rip apart, I satisfy my rage.

The ink between your fingers is stickier than nectar

And I bite down with force like Hannibal Lecter.

But I can’t hurt your skin or your skull, or your veins –

Gonna be a cold day in hell when I burn your remains.

My palms draw your lines and lumps for one more time.

Your hair exudes the smell of long broken pines.

Paint leaking onto the floor, paint dripping from your lashes.

You meld into the walls, you vanish in flashes.

-JW

The Gallows

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Your love is like a noose

And all the witches must be hanged.

The people who choose to look away

Are executioners too.

They can’t be saved.

If I only knew back then

The lengths your self-hate goes,

I would know when to leave.

But I was naïve

And it shows.

I heave from the pressure,

My nostrils shut closed.

Your soul’s a damn fixture,

The bruises you leave

Are your favourite ghosts.

Yet your love is still a noose,

No witch can be spared.

Some win and some lose.

But if you look the other way

You can’t be saved.

So hang me if you dare.

-JW

The Road

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Let’s follow the blood splattered in the glistening snow,

Let’s take the path neither of us ever wanted to go.

The branches shuffle over our heads like playing cards,

The claws of the cold are sharp, they’re pointier than darts.

But the path has no ending and we can’t catch a break.

The air leaving our lungs freezes the nearby lake.

Might as well be an underwater scene or the desert –

We ignore the view when the truth is unpleasant.

The roads will take us home, treat the open wounds,

Get us to the finish line before the bloodhounds

And keep our numb hands clear of all the past misdeeds.

One more step and they will let us live

As long as we bleed.

-JW

The Woods

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Some days I don’t recognize her silhouette against the horizon.

Her feet run like a river but her mind is a dark moon rising.

Some days she follows me silently, waiting for the right moment,

And I only realize when it’s too late, once my mouth is foaming.

She doesn’t bite, she only chuckles in the foggy street corners.

She spreads the disease by filling my head with ten mourners.

The crows are chasing the sparks of my brain through the park,

I trip and tumble over my own two feet, no clarity in this dark.

Her presence is stronger, she comes closer, it’s a rollercoaster.

My shivering back pressed against a tree, sky picturesque like a poster.

I hold what’s left of my breath, squeeze my lids together tightly.

When I dare to look again, I hear a whisper sliding through the woods:

“Next time don’t fight me.”

-JW

Lost

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Looking for my own ten commandments,

Preaching my own deadly sins.

Strikes, lines, crosses, repeated amendments.

Pulling out Band-Aids and pins.

Each border I traverse hits me in the chest,

It scorches the bubbling skin.

It’s a travesty – when I left my past to rest

I wrapped it in second-hand tin.

The narrative erases the last of my patience,

My innocence is wearing thin.

Greed and lust, two of reality’s best agents,

Become my next of kin.

I’m still seeking my own ten commandments,

Repeating my favorite sins.

Death wishes keep hiding in the finest of prints,

Tattooed with bloody pens.

-JW