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The Lines We Cross

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Ever since we met, I have been cursing the devil

Because no decent god could have made me this broken.

My ego often consumes me like a ravenous ghoul,

But I shush the vile thoughts and mind the words that are spoken.

The cycle repeats, yet the time spins backwards,

And if I touch that flame now, it will scar my descendants.

If I pull back my hand, if I contain this deep madness,

Can I return to my gods and my fresh independence?

The line I cannot cross has encircled me like a target.

Just one gust of wind, and I will lose all of my grace.

There is a list I keep of people who will not forgive me.

When I look at you, I see each and every face.

-Jackie

Bitter

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Here’s a bitter pill to swallow: they don’t need me if I don’t show them sympathy first.

They’re doing great. Everything’s lovely. The moment it’s not, they drink up my empathies with a godless thirst.

Too bad I’ve been too blinded by our history, reflecting into the unknown. I missed the warning signs.

I should’ve never taken up another beggar after one already tore my core into a painting of alarming sights.

But I’m not motivated by the anger. I’m writing this because no one’s here on these dawning nights.

It all passes once the sun starts creeping up the horizon, yet the bitterness is not erased by these morning lights.

I’m mourning our fights.

The thought of never seeing them again fills me with ease so maybe I should keep my heart locked away?

In the cupboard, next to a broken glass and shivering illusions of safety, shining brighter than the signs of Broadway…

Maybe I should built a festival out of this little hideaway,

Just for myself.

But I’d rather do it like Hemingway.

Here’s a bitter pill to swallow: they would need me more if they could add me on their resume.

-JW