You sat there, one feet away, your arm right by mine. Your warmth – numbing.
I wish they could see me getting looked at this way.
They said I’m just trouble and my father left because of my shortcomings.
You brushed the fear away and you held me back when I was seeing red.
But when the sand castles I built came apart, I was screaming at the sea –
And yet, you didn’t see me as a threat.
You called me crazy a few times, I called you a moron, and we called it a day.
No matter what happens, your cheek in my hand is what matters,
I wouldn’t have it any other way.
You danced to the silly records I put on this afternoon when you thought it’s lost.
The circles you drew in the air while smiling at me
Was probably what I loved the most.
You have to go soon. You don’t know it yet but you have to leave.
I will drop out of this manic phase, I will break your heart without noticing.
By the corner we met you will heave.
You still are the only person I’m truly sorry to. I wish they could see me.
The way you looked at me like you could read between the lines of my mind
Made me think you could never leave me.
You know you can’t. I promise I’ll make it easy. My love, I swear –
If I had everything in this world, the only thing I’d me missing
Is having your scent to wear
Around my veins and arteries, pulsating,
Spreading your sweet naivety across the room
Slowly detonating
The strings of my heart.
My love, I’m only playing the part.
-JW
The Daily Writing of Jackie Wright 